Wellness check

So what used to be called an annual where they check all of your feminine bits and pieces is now called a "wellness check" ... for 65 and older. Where you have to answer a questionnaire about how many times you think about offing yourself, can you shower by alone, do you fall over carpets?, do you have your medical directives sorted out. Your drinking and smoking habits (I would say at this age DRINK MORE, SMOKE MORE!) So I had my "annual today". I do have to say, I love this doctor and the follow-up doctor I saw last week. Young and very gentle, smart. 

My blood pressure has gone way down. Because I quit drinking wine? That was way back before Christmas and I miss it around 5PM when it is time for the day to wind down. But not beyond that. Lost weight and even quit biting my nails ... after a lifetime of trying! After avoiding salt for years, I am now addicted to these Winco-snacky-bulk-tail-mix ... LOADED WITH SALT. Dr, Jia said I could probably back off of that now. Although, I did take another blood test today to check my sodium level. It was still low last week. 

I voiced my concern about how tired I felt and she assured me that it would take some time to bounce back from the low sodium/sepsis so just nap whenever I felt like it ... Sure! I said. But answering that questionnaire made me realize how vulnerable I feel as an old person AND how I am starting to really feel like an older person.  I watch old people more in public and wonder if they feel like me.

When I was at Winco and at the Dr. Office ... I noticed older people in wheelchairs or walkers and wonder if they are lucky enough to have family and kids that help them throughout their day. I do consider myself very lucky to have the kids here to help me, shop for me, or drive me places. Trading out clean house for peace of mind! I have almost stopped driving until I get the cataract surgery completed. I  have such a hard time seeing/reading anything at the grocery store! Going blind! Another aged infirmary not pleasant to experience.

Today driving home ... I turned down a street in my neighborhood I had never seen before. Just for grins. It was a wonderful street with well-built 70's homes with interesting front yards. I would have liked to live on that street.

I don't think there is a YouTube disaster movie I had not watched. Have substituted disaster movies for trump, for my SANITY. Although I did a trump meltdown yesterday when he went on truth social and all of his minions started mimicking his 'Biden had directed the FBI to kill on-sight during the Mar-a-Lago raid ...'  BTW Trump was not even AT Mar-a-Lago during the raid.

So all of his not-so-bright-cult-members will swallow that stupid story hook, line and sinker. This is what makes me so mad about this ... critical thinking for the cult? NO. When will that virus just disappear as he promised years ago.

Anyway, back to the disaster movies. I saw the "Sand Shark", a prehistoric, sand-dwelling shark that jumps out from the sand to eat people. Terrific! There was a great one where Bull sharks had invaded the Louisiana swamps. Every quake and volcano movie out there. Fortunately, or unfortunately ... I usually fall asleep so I can watch them over and over and over again. I think I am just having such a hard time sleeping ... anything to put me to sleep.

Another thing I need to quit besides the salty-snacky-crap-from-Winco ... Fruit Punch Gatorade. When my electrolytes were out of whack I started drinking this liquid crack! My son suggests the sugar-free but I don't like sugar-free.

Robin sent me a late-night text saying that Affleck and JLo had split. I had to call her back and say good ... every time I see a photo of Ben he looks miserable, walking or scowling from car to building holding a large cup of coffee or a large something. I gave up on him when he left the first, more beautiful Jennifer.

I love AJ Casson landscapes and brushwork.