We have a new baby, born October 29. I wondered today why I felt so completely exhausted and thought, "Yeah, we just had a baby! I have been completely overwhelmed with my new job. My husband has been working 7 days a week for months. My mom is very ill. I still have freelance jobs out there that I am neglecting. And a completely filthy house (which makes me tired to just think about)".
So, maybe, I have a reason to be tired. That is what my husband and mom keep reminding me.
The kids have taken Mason to her folks to meet, aunts and and great-grandmothers, etc. I took the opportunity to clean the rooms where they hang out.
Yesterday, feeling a little tired and sick, I left work a couple of hours early. Got home to realized it was not raining as predicted, so mowed, cut grape vines from my neighbors yard, and cut some clematis that make it impossible for my neighbors to close their gate, cut down my old lilies and filled up the back of my truck. Then I really did feel exhausted. Came in and held Mason for an hour. Just watched her face, her smiles, her yawns, her stretches. All adorable and affirming.
We are having such a great time just watching her every move, and even more fun, watching Matt and Bri watching Mason's every move. She such an easy baby. "Titty-baby". As long as she can eat, and sleep, she is perfectly content. She reminds me of Matt and Bri's mom says she reminds her of Bri, so, right now, we have the easiest baby in the world. She is handed over from person to person in the house, rocking and cooing and loving her. It is all very, very wonderful. Even the dogs are already protective of her. If and when she decided to cry, they all run to her defense.
Feeling pretty blessed right now in my personal life. Not quite so convinced about my career right now, but I know I will figure it all out. So am not stressing over it too much.
Bri is a terrific mom, which makes being a grandmother so much easier. Watching Matt so in love with Mason, becoming a terrific dad, is another completely satisfying vision.
My only, and supremely wonderful sister told me a couple of days ago she has breast cancer. So if you have a prayer group, or have an upstairs connection yourself, I would be so thankful. Her name is Lisa. She is the best of our family.
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